thinking.

sooo i don't know how to feel about this.
it's not a bad thing, and i know that.
i'm just confused.
and i have every right to be.

is this what i want?
is this what i should go for?
is this what i need to keep?
where do i go next, though?

what happens if it ends?
if it doesn't work?
if i fail?
what then?

it's not something i'm really considering.
but at the same time it is.
they're two questions;
related, but so attached.

who knows anymore?
certainly not i.
i think it's just because.
i think it's just going to happen.

and i'm not going to be able to;
nor will i try to...
stop it.